Istredd, partner | Year 1

Istredd, partner | Year 1

And Then They Were Roommates [7/25/22]

"Well, the bed's open," he surprises himself to say. "No one else has taken up space here." He'd

to keep it that way, but this might work out in his favor. Someone that both isn't a pain to talk to, will likely bury themselves in the library much as Lucifer had done, and might be able to give him some sort of upper-hand down the road.

Wound Cleaning [9/1/22]

"Hate to break it to you, but if Yennefer stabs you, you're on your own for that one."
He may like Istredd but he's not getting on Yennefer's bad side for fixing up an injury that she caused. He can only

the hell she could bring down on him.
Not worth it.

Paranoia is a Pretty Extreme Form of Concern [9/20/22]

"If you try to dig around in my head," Lucifer starts, the warning even more pronounced than it was before, but then he stops.
The sentence should have finished simply with:

. It doesn't.
"I

, Lucifer, not without asking. I should have told you, I'm sorry."

Not

For the Record, I Didn't Do It [10/23/22]

"Thank you. For getting me."
For worrying enough about his lack of presence and then carrying his body back to the room, apparently. It's very unusual for someone to put that much effort into noticing him.

Melodramatic Much, Lucifer? [11/11/22]

"Never underestimate the ability of people to forgive. Be open that your intentions weren't good in the start, but they changed. You care now. It matters. I had a conversation like this with my friend Wanda." Finally the recognition they both have a special connection to her. "I told her if we weren't changing, we aren't living. And you're living, Lucifer."

Thorne Grounded Me JSYK [11/14/22]

Istredd's eyes widen at the implication as this is a clear line they made between them and he has not crossed in the slightest. A sign of wary trust or at least understanding no matter what there are ears here. No one would be able to listen in on his telepathy, it is the most warded skill that he has. His mind is the toughest part about him.

trapped

Placeholder

Conspiracy of Introverts [12/5/22]

"You should get some ravens, Istredd."
"Make your own ravens, you know how this place works."

Can Angels Get Aneurysms? [12/16/22]

"Okay. Okay. Two things are going to happen.
"First: when we are out of here, you're taking my switchblade. In case of emergency. It might--ah, get recognized. I'm not taking it back until we are in Thorne.
"Second. You said once you were able to send a telepathic warning to Yennefer. Whatever the hell you need to do in order to do that with me,

. I

to know immediately if something goes wrong so I can prepare here."

Lucifer Won the Game [12/28/22]

"You just told me you were reconsidering your revenge plot because of me. I think I can trust that you will keep this quiet. I should be able to talk to my closest friend about my life."
Lord.
That's going to keep him up at night.
Well. A problem for down the road.

Define Interesting [12/17/22]

"You'll have to excuse me for my bluntness, but

. It is their choice to hold onto their opinions and even if it is justified, it is a waste of energy since you are not doing anything destructive here. If you want to find a way to make peace with them, I encourage that, our enemies are the people who took us here, but you don't need to."

The Pettiest Conspiracy [12/30/22]

But the next time Istredd comes to his domain it will be

I'm Sorry They're Gay Kyle [1/1/23]

, he emphasizes. "Regardless what my siblings prefer to think, we are creatures of wrath. I'm more than that, or I became more than that, I don't know.

am a creature of

. It's a feed, it's a fuel."

Istredd

here

Drive-by Devil [1/13/23]

His thumb gently caresses Lucifer's name on the page, seeing it on the list for what it is.

Istredd's noticed him touch it subconsciously.

The Boy Got Grounded [1/24/23]

Glad you didn't become an eel.

It's Not a Date [1/25/23]

"Maybe nothing original in essence, to you, but something can still be yours. If you are using pieces of his creations designed in a way of your own, it counts. The snake, our ravens."

Horizon Instant Messaging Sucks (Event #12) [2/23/23]

Churn out a little rage for me.

Nobody

The kids are out, go and find them

fml: Nocwich Reunion (Event #12) [3/19/23]

"They do need you.

need you."
"None of you

need a savior.

need a concept. An idea of a person that

!"
"You have forgotten we are

I see you, not an idea. You

this."
"

laughing

fml: electric boogaloo [4/3/23]

"No, no, no. I'm sorry, I should have known. I'm sorry. This has nothing to do with Yennefer or anyone else. I kissed you because I want you. I --- fuck it, why am I still afraid? I love you. Please don't run, I just -- I can't help it."

~~Istredd Breaks Lucifer over 9000~~

people

You're not nobody

~~I hate you / no you don't~~

months

~~idiot~~

'I want'

Hayle Date (NSFW Eventually) [4/21/23]

Humans live through suffering. I've never understood it. Why waste so much time living in pain for small grasps at salvation? I don't particularly think our friendship was worth your quiet suffering, but I'm sure you'd argue that.

I am really not interested in salvation. Grasps at happiness, maybe, or conviction, satisfaction, peace. I lived for years content enough in my research and discovery. No suffering there, although I suppose it would be mundane to most people. With all due respect, Lucifer, you lived through billions of years of suffering. Our lifetimes are so small compared to yours, even mine. If I spent a hundred more years in pain longing for you, our friendship would be worth every moment of it to me. We came from different universes, we should have never met, never had this. So of course I cherish it in every form.

~~wtf Istredd you're killing me x_x~~

owed

I definitely fell in love with your mind first. I thought it had to be obvious when I called it beautiful.

yet

~~screw you man~~

sacrifice

Same book, same page, same sentence

I should have tormented you

Yeah, you probably should have

~~you try going through 145 comments~~

Nott Quite There Yet [5/2/23]
~~so much for this being a simple thread~~

I was about to ask you, of all people, how was I supposed to change a fundamental personality quality? After months of convincing you how change is good and breaking down your walls.
Tag, you're it. It's your turn to experience the gut-wrenching, nerve-wracking emotions surrounding trying to stumble your way through a different frame of mind.
It's terrible, I hate it. I take back everything I've ever told you.

Yeah

bite me, Istredd

This? Is a sign that you're going to be okay. That whatever else cracks--whatever else, out-of-place bits we find? We'll repair them, fill them in. You're not going to be

, Istredd. Whatever's there will still be beautiful.

~~Envy~~

want

you

don't

Yes

Dean's a Little Shitbird [~May]

He brings up Istredd's hand from where they're grasped together, shifting the hold. "He didn't do anything to you? Mess with you?" his voice is low. "Touch you?" Lucifer, who has proven to be fine in terms of Yennefer, is

possessive when it comes to Anyone Else, as it turns out. That possessiveness is a warm thrum between them, where Lucifer is usually so typically frigid by nature.

actual panic

WASN'T CLEAR

you're WELCOME

your

~~and your trauma~~

naaaah

WHAT

emotional stability is whirling grace at your partner's head [early june]

It's not the

that does it. It's that Istredd still touches him when Lucifer very well could actually sever his hand at the wrist with his teeth. That the venom is there, the

to just simply lash out at this fool of a mage even daring to reach out to the monster under everyone's bed.

control

Shut up

Hunting Dates [first weekend june]
~~what the shit~~

"Because after all

that you were still trying to cope with, you

needed to hear how I took up the old hat of Master Torturer, how much blood had been on my hands than in my entire stay in Abraxas!
"Because

after things finally,

trying to get back to 'normal' in the castle seemed like a

time to mention how I got tossed and locked in the dungeons for a day because I went for Ambrose!
"Maybe I just want us to have some peace!"

You mind. Is so. Beautiful

you

didn't

scandalized

your

this

without

should

fix

Grand Masquerade Scope [6/18/23]
Stealing His Dance Partner, thx
Istredd Says No to Fighting
Post-Party

"What about you, huh? I disappear, you go, what, hide away in the library for eternity until you find a way to hide with the Singularity instead? Be lucky if Yennefer can pull you back? You think my self-destruction could be dangerous but

more likely to close everyone out than I am!"
"I never said that I wouldn't also self-destruct. I've never loved anyone or anything the way I love you. I would be a wreck, yes, and might hide instead of cope. I'd want to close my heart so no one could ever get there again. And you wouldn't want that for me, right? That's all I'm saying, the other way around."
"I know."
"It'll always be both of us."

I wonder if I could get him to sing the song for me.
Why don't we ask him--

You are the worst!

him

Who knows where we'll be in a hundred years, love? This may all be a blip to us long term.

I suppose I'd have to be your high priest or whatever.

You mean High Priestess.

Lucifer... If I am taken from you, I don't want you to self-destruct or cut off everyone else.
Sure, I don't need you, I'll be fine.

I can self-destruct and keep the others close. They need me too much to take the hint and leave!

been going just fine

better

weaker

'the problem one'

All

You showed me your true face.

I trusted you with it. Only you.

Istredd, partner | Year 2

Istredd, partner | Year 2

Sentimentality (NSFW Eventually) [8/1/23]

"Okay so you didn't know you wanted me until we kissed, but when did you know you liked me as a person?"
"

you? That needs a narrower definition. But I suppose deciding to not threaten killing you for being a telepath in my immediate presence is a fair starting point."
"Yes, like me. It doesn't need a narrower definition, you know what I mean. I already considered us friends by that point, but for me it was when you got me when I was stuck in the Horizon."
"Yes it does. Because there's liking you enough that I at least

your opinion--I wouldn't say trust. There's liking you enough that I wasn't simply going to let you die at whatever convenient timing came up. And there's trusting you with my mind.

. I don't have that answer, either, not really. It was sometime before the heralds showed up. Probably for just some mundane, dumb reason."

Unplug [8/9/23]

"Sorry."
"You need to stop apologizing when you're not actually sorry for anything. I can't say anything for what was or wasn't done down there. But your mind's already a raw mental wound. I'm not peeling into that right now."
"I can do what I want. It's like when you didn't tell me about what you did. Are we protecting each other or protecting ourselves?"
"Oh you can, can you? Protecting the foundation."
"I can. You have to indulge me because -- you're very fond of me."

you

not

worse

DAD

You

Between Two Mages (And Not in a Fun Way) [8/25/23]

He turns completely, frozen in anger, blocking out Yennefer completely--uncaring about the brief opening it leaves, too much locked-rage facing in Istredd's direction. Oh look, now he's paying attention. There are no cohesive words in his head but the hostile feeling of

GET OUT OF MY HEAD

is very clear.

Wilhelm, Kell, Wanda, Kyle, Istredd, even Yennefer herself. The two of them dancing at Hayle, Wilhelm gardening with him, Kyle drinking with them, Kell's serious brow furrowing, Wanda naming the ravens, Yennefer rolling her eyes. Their smiles, an annoyed but amused look, the sound of their voices calling to Lucifer, begging him to come back connected to Istredd's own.
People who changed Lucifer, who made him more than this. Even Jack Townsend, Natasha, Lenore.

feels

Your Brain Needs to Reboot

Two Frayed-Edged Minds (Istredd s3 Canon Update) [9/1/23]

What's you talking through it going to do? I can't say anything that's going to make this better.

I can't fix this with words, I may as well fix it the way I can. Why should you have to suffer through it? Why do you

to feel it? There's no reason to when you have other options!

fix

want

let

Rebuilding Barriers [10/10/23]

would

privacy

Lucifer

punches

fix

feel

You can't understand love without heartbreak.

that is not a fun exercise, you asshole, and you know it [10/20/23]

[That

won't take the time to browse for a bookstore means more to Lucifer and where Istredd really stands with all this. They're here for different reasons but that doesn't mean Lucifer will fail.

He won't let Istredd fail, either.

Istredd would

forgive himself and Lucifer would unfortunately have to live with

. Waaaaay harder than living with Istredd after.]

~~and Reckless~~

Nerd

not

got ur b00ks [12/14/23]

Hey, I managed to snag you some books. [Re: Lucifer's sense of humor that Istredd is well established with.

There is nothing of value to these books. They're barely holding together, though enough that they made the trip. Whatever ink remains isn't legible, no signs to if they were once a cooking book or fiction or what, the titles smeared away. BUT HEY. HE GOT YOU BOOKS. A WHOLE THREE OF THEM. :) At least they're not toxic.]

thief [1/11/24]

...

Wanda, sister

Wanda Maximoff, sister

What is this, Real Housewives of Abraxas? [7/4/22]

"You are free now, then," this world, this nightmare, it isn't a reality. Wanda understands now. "What will you do with it?" With your freedom? It's curious to wonder about it, but she wishes to know.
"I don't

Me and Prophecy [7/31/22]

Then let us hope it doesn't come to that. Evil or not, we — [

] — still have a soul and a heart, and— [quieter still] The world failed us. How is that our fault?

He's Not Entirely Alone [8/21/22]

You are the evil of your world, and — perhaps some here will not let you forget that. [she doesn't know enough about those from his world to test this statement, but she is drawing from her own experiences.] But, here, you are— Lucifer. [not the devil] To some of us, that does not make you the enemy.

I Need Your Help [11/11/22]

You really think I cared about that? He was one of the first people I met! I did as much as he would let me! Sannleikr took everyone else away from him! Even if I apologized

! He needs to cool off before he listens to a damn thing I say and I need him to have an

in the meantime so he

Lucifer

Another Lost Cause For Me [12/30/22]

No matter what you've done and who you are, you deserve a chance to meet your son.

Happy Living Another Year [1/4/23]

I prefer this version of you.
I'm not sure how

feel about this version of myself, but thanks, I guess.

Parental Pains [7/9/23]

...

You Wouldn't Do This to Me [8/31/23]

...

Wilhelm, surrogate son

Wilhelm, surrogate son

Definite Not the Devil, ha, ha [5/21/22]

"Lucifer. Lucia. I bet they come from the same root word. Probably something Latin."

Spy Creation [7/4/22]

Fuel to the Fire [7/16/22]

"But

. Anger. You feed into those like you feed any fire. You

yourself to thrive."

You Stupid Child [8/21/22]

"You don't have to talk to me like I'm a dumb fucking kid."
"Apparently I do."

Horizon Checking In 9/3/22]

Truth and Truth [10/20/22]

, really? You're so sunk in your own head that you still haven't realized that

How to Lie, a Speedrun [11/14/22]

that

World's Worst Fine Dining [12/18/23]

Kid doesn't know how many sacrifices Lucifer has given for him, won't ever if Lucifer has his way, but here they are. Lucifer still sopping up Wilhelm's messes in the name of protection.

This really, truly, is how he's Fallen.

Devil's First Apology [1/1/23]

"Look, I know you won't believe me, but I am sorry for how things happened. I'm sorry for how you found out--that I didn't have enough strength to fight against a so-called god's ability. Did I ever intend to tell you? Probably not. Did I intend to keep using you like that?" He breathes in and sighs, tilting his head to the side. "Probably not."

Public Prayer (Event #12) [2/19/23]

Rescue in Snow (Event #12) [3/17/23]

Don't take this the wrong way, but...you're the weirdest guardian angel ever.

Permanence Problems [4/24/23]

"Why're you out by yourself?"
"I'm not out by myself. You're here now."

Did You Just Feel Like Being Ironic [5/15/23]

Istredd has long since seen something in Lucifer that most would miss — that he himself had almost missed, blinded by anger and blinkered by stories someone spun thousands of years ago.

Wilhelm believes it now too. Lucifer didn't have to apologize to him for trying to sharpen him into a tool. He didn't have to save him when he was taken by the Acolytes. But he had. He made that choice.

~~wtf dammit Wilhelm~~

Congrats on Surviving Here a Year [6/16/23]

"I still don't even really know what I want. I only know what I

want."

Kell, surrogate son

Kell Maresh, surrogate son

~~I think all his Kell Revelations are on non-Kell featured threads and will be harder to track down~~

Can I Borrow Some Cash [8/16/22]

"As you are a fine member of society that has a job and thus an income—how possible would it be to, ah, perhaps get a

from you?"

You Said You Had a Plan [9/10/22]

are going to get someone killed. And if it's him? I

kill you."

Fire Brigade [9/12/22]

What Lucifer

be doing is making use of Kell's volatile anger and find a different target for it. Doesn't matter the target as long as it isn't one of Lucifer's projects, thank you very much. Hell, it could be

if it didn't end with someone likely thrown in jail.

Problems for another time.

(One of those problems being he sees a lot of himself in Kell and isn't that just

Don't Sell Yourself Short [12/5/23]

Rhy may be one of a kind, but of the two brothers, Lucifer is more drawn to Kell. Whether or not that turns out to be a good thing is up in the air.

[]

Geese Are a Menace [12/16/22]

He can understand that. There was a time when him and Michael could be considered the same.

Lucifer prefers not to think about it. They've cracked apart so many times that the only reasons the pieces have some semblance of lineup again right now is likely because they're a faction apart. An actual mountain range between them. Before that wouldn't have mattered much, but the push of the wards and Lucifer's own limited flight capabilities makes the difference.

Part of him wants to

Rhy and Kell crack, too. He bets there could be a way, with enough time and meticulous effort. Just make them feel the inevitable pain, because why should

be fine?

It's halfhearted at best. He has no care either way about Rhy, but Kell.

Eh.

Boat with Istredd [12/16/23]

When he looks up again it's almost with a careless thought. That's perhaps the only reason it works, because it's there and gone, and snippet of wishing

to the few people he desires to have it. Never in his life could he say as an archangel he's ever actually Blessed another being, but for only a minute Istredd, Wilhelm, and Kell will feel that warmth, like a fraction of the Lunar Pond's ceremony.

Inbox with Kyle [1/11/23]

And he's a firecracker like me, like Kell. Red-hot waiting rage, no outlet. Shouting at the world, at family, at responsibility. Disasters-in-making, trying to come out on top, desperate for control.

Fighting with Rhy (Event #12) [2/21/23]

There's the barest crack in Lucifer's stony composure, the faintest of pleas, "Don't say it," he says. Don't say Kell's missing, too.
"He's gone,

. They fucking

him, and the first thing he says to me is to find

. He trusted you. Said you would know what to do. Well?

."
"They're

gone! I didn't ask anyone to trust me! You know what I'm doing? I'm trying not to kill every person in this godforsaken city! They've started to tighten the cage and I don't have a strong enough 'reason' to leave this place, even 'under guard' to scout around like Kyle does!

the diplomat, aren't you?!"

Just Two Allies Fighting on Their Way to Rescue You (Event #12) [3/21/23]

God created hellhounds to be the first attempt at making "man's best friend." It didn't go well. He deemed the creatures too vicious and intended to destroy them.

Lucifer saved one, Ramsey, and she became the progenitor of the hellhounds.

Feral, mangy, monster of a thing.

That's where his mind goes when he takes in Kell's attitude, thrown right back at Lucifer. It would likely continue in a needless cycle if Kell's weakness wasn't showing through and that was, unfortunately, a sticking point for Lucifer.

~~Istredd had a deathwish Kell there's no fixing that~~

do you want me to blame you

need

Oh, That Silly thing [5/21/23]

Silly, right.

He can imagine the completely mythical situation that had a time where him and Michael weren't enemies and wanting Michael to 'save him' but knowing that he was needed elsewhere and how terrible he'd feel, anyway.

He relates to Kell in a lot of ways but relating to his relationship with Rhy is always the worst.

you

Michael, brother (home)

Michael, brother

It's Complicated [10/20/22]

"You've missed a few things. Our Father returned. Again. The last I saw Him, He'd seemed to come around to your notion of destroying humanity. If He were to show up here and you're not planning to help Him, I suppose that would give you a week to kill Him. Assuming this isn't all some joke of His, of course."

Dean Winchester

I Haven't Needed You For Lifetimes [12/21/22]

"You may be shattered. You barely merit the title of angel, for how little grace you have left. I'm merely shackled. Don't presume that we are at all alike anymore."

Michael, What the Hell [1/11/23]

Then here is my perspective. We were happy, once, if you remember that far back. Then you changed. You learned how to disobey. Did that bring you joy? Did it bring you the satisfaction or the vindication you hoped it would? Has any decision you've made since you were cast out brought you a reward?
You know what regret is. Reflect carefully before you make your changes, brother.

World's Worst Family Event [4/23/23]

I cannot for the life of me believe I'm saying this, but Michael's right.

This Better Not Be a Joke [6/22/23]

"I recognize you don't believe me--because why would you

--but something's screwed with your mind and this isn't you--this isn't

, and at

you're going to snap out of this and just

." Like Lucifer. "This is not my fault. I'm saying this

, so in the future you don't blame me like you do everything else--I am

for this!"

Gabriel, brother (home)

Gabriel, brother

You know I think I actually miss the days where all the gossip about me was about how I was evil incarnate.

Castiel, brother (home)

Castiel, brother

I didn't realize it was quite a salad eating out of sorts.

Kyle, brother????

Kyle, ??????

Hey Don't you even think for one second to go dying on me!

Yennefer, mirror

Yennefer, mirror

it's complicated

Mat, resource

Mat, resource

ugh

updated 2/1/24

[Abraxas] Relationship Maps

Istredd, partner | Year 1

Istredd, partner | Year 2

Wanda Maximoff, sister

Wilhelm, surrogate son

Kell Maresh, surrogate son

Michael, brother

Gabriel, brother

Castiel, brother

Kyle, ??????

Yennefer, mirror

Mat, resource

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