I know you don't want to hear it but there's nothing you could've done to keep their poison out. You can't be blamed for whatever happened with it. The mind is always the target, maybe whatever happened with the fungus was just a side effect, I don't know.

If you want to explore ways to get control for yourself from here forward, we will. I don't know what that would look like for you since the rest of us might just be closer to faking it, but there must be something.